Before I get into a huge blog entry, I just want to say Happy New Year and I hope all your goals come true.

I had afew brief ideas for blogs I wanted to write but didn’t really get around to writing them or able to create enough mental content to feel confident enough to write about something that come to mind. I always seem to be running out of time lately, I always seem to burn out or let time fly by and I have to get to other things like sleep so I can try balance a social life (Yeah.. right) I’m lucky enough to have a huge topic I can write about, which all readers can reflect on. My blog is a year old on 10.01.09 and I want to take some personal time to reflect the events of my year and things that I’ve experienced and went through.

I can’t really say I’ve had the best year and I can’t say I took advantage of everything I could have but we all fuck up things in life and mine is hard to explain.. In one way I took things to seriously but in another way, I took life to easy and just let shit ride by. I’ve taken relationships far to seriously and now I’ve begun to see a light but I don’t know if anything will change in the near future that’s to do with relationships because as much as I’m stable, I don’t want to end up dependant of someone or being commited. I think we all know what love is in our own little way but isn’t loving someone actually just becoming dependant of them? I don’t need that shit in my life and I certainly don’t want to be dependant of someone who could end up being completely different to me.. You’d be suprised how many people you could date and once you break up.. how different they become and just.. how much you regret what you had because you realise they’re actually just an asshole or you got the completely wrong take of them. Screw blogging about love anyway, I’ve suffered enough from it in 2008 with fucked up relationships that I’ve got nothing out of. I should be putting all my energy into schooling, I’ve got no clue what I’m going to end up as but I know that I’ll have a clear idea once I’ve got to year 12 and sat my exams. I don’t have to make decisions straight away because afterall, this is for the rest of my life and happiness. I want to follow my dreams but I want to be proud of what I’ve achieved, even if it’s only a Year12 pass. I just hope this year will be different and I’ll actually do well in school.

I’m actually proud to call this my blog, I look back on newer entries and I see that I’m improving with writing and now I actually feel like a ‘pure soul’ I’ve improved myself by just living life for me. I think music has been a huge influence for me and even writing my own powerful words into lyrics, I can power words into anything I want and even give myself a life lesson by putting words into something I can take from them. I doubt music is this powerful for many people because they listen to it for the hip beat or the catchy hook but it’s helped me a lot and I plan to help others with my own music and own musical ideas which I legally cannot reveal on this blog…

I know this year will have it’s ups and downs but I know that I’m going to handle it to the best of my ability and I’m going to stay true to myself because I only need to look out for myself and care for others, I’m going to make myself proud and even though I won’t achieve everything I want this year. I can only push myself to the limit and know that I’ve done my best and not get myself down over such peddy shit like ‘I could have done better’.

Just before I go, you should follow me on Twitter if you aren’t already and I’d also like to thank Shane from Success Circuit for featuring me in his eBook “Cited Success: Learn from the masters’ and praising me as a ‘master’ I don’t see myself as one but I’m honored to be praised by such a bright young man who’s got a great future ahead of him. Thanks a lot Shane and you should check out his site.

I don’t need to be what anyone expects me to be in life, I can take whatever route in life I want and nobody can question me because I want to live life for me and not have to be caught up in the moment of bullshit that holds this earth from further developing our social skills and being able to make where we live a better place.

I’m going to see the world by screaming lyrics into a mic just because it’s my dream and something I know I’m going to achieve when I’m older. Peoples expectations of me are worthless, I don’t care what you think I should amount to. I don’t care if you dislike the genre, I just don’t give a shit about what you think of the lyrics. People need to take the time to actually look at these lyrics and realise, wow, they’ve got the definition of the world by the balls and their trying to show the flaws like a blue light in a motel room.

People these days are to caught up with 2-3 catchy hooks which are made to get your attention. I hope ‘Pop’ groups/artists pay for their lyrics because I’d be fucking ashamed to call them my own, they’re all the same breakup/love/getting drunk sort of song that requires no talent what so ever to create. People should be able to write from the heart or their head, songs should just be a way to tell a story.

I’ve got plenty of stuff written in notebooks and on my computer that I’ve put my heart into and that I’m proud of, I’m young but I’m learning my life lessons now and I’m learning some of the most important shit. Never depend on someone to get you somewhere in live because they’re just going to fail and never try to live up to someones expectations or fake who you are to change something in your life. It makes you fake and what’s the point when the real you never acheived it. You got to stay true to yourself because all that matters in the end is you, your true friends and how you reflect on who you are as a person. We all fuck up in life but how you deal with the situation is what makes you truly unique.

It doesn’t matter if I never become famous or a well known musician, I never set out for such a thing. I just want to be able to take peoples breath away with my words and be able to make people think, I don’t have any other dreams. I don’t want to be ruled by a boss and I hope to never have to be enslaved with a shit desk job that’ll make me unhappy, I’ve been through my depression stage. Now’s the time for me to really shine and be who I want to be.

I love all my readers && Merry Christmas

The holiday time of year is fast approaching in Australia and life is a busy time for me currently, I’ve been working and enjoying life day by day and having to deal with shit now and then. I’m actually pretty laid back right now enjoying my christmas holidays and thinking about the next few days and how they’re going to play out. I’m pure at the moment and life can easily have its downs for me but I try put it past me and see what I’m living for at the moment.

I’m right now single and I’m actually glad that I am, I don’t have to deal with some of the bullshit I’ve been through with past relationships or lies that people make up to ‘protect you’… I dated a girl who was like that and she still texts me now I know who she truly is and I’m pretty much just a way for her not to feel alone and feel loved but thats because I was a fucking sucker at the time and would let her come back into my life. It doesn’t make a difference now because I’ve learnt and even now when she says she loves me I just ignore it and get on with my life. I don’t need that sort of mind game fucking bullshit and nobody else deserves it but I think everyone knows she’ll never change her ways till something really smacks her in the face and says ‘Hey fuckhead, you’re not the only one with feelings, pull your fucking head in’

I hope everyone has great holidays and spend time with their families. Merry Christmas I promise I’ll be blogging more soon!

In the world everyone has chains around their wrists and in life, you’re either a slave to somebody else or you’re strong enough to follow dreams and take control of the chains and become a master. - James Murphy.

I’ve been so lazy with posting lately, everyday for about the past week I’ve sat down and thought about posting and even had little ideas of what I could discuss but I end up forgetting or get side tracked. I’ve actually been social lately. Been going out with friends or not sitting infront of a console or screen for as long. It’s not going to achieve anything because sometimes you zone out and just think about how you’re wasting time and feel uncomfortable..

I attended a dinner about a week ago for some friends who were leaving to another state in Australia, they’ll be greatly missed but when I look back on the night or even when I was there. I was such an outcast, everyone was sitting their giggling or talking in their own groups. I wasn’t alone the whole night but for the majority I felt so self conscious and was worried about my every action. I really don’t want this to happen everytime I’m out. It worries me, I haven’t really established many friendships with people and I don’t even have much in common with many ‘normal people’ - My music taste and dress sense is enough to scare people off but that’s just who I am.

I want to fit in with people but I don’t want to fake who I am or have to change myself too. You’re probably thinking why the fuck would I want to be their friends right? well I think that some people judge to harshly when they first meet you so they already have very vivid opinions of you that may not be completely true. I think once they’ve seen who you are then they come to realise that the minor details of things you may not have in common aren’t as important and tend not to matter.

Wow, I went pretty off track for a blog that was meant to be an update, Life seems decent at the moment, I’ve sat my exams last week and finished school which is great, means I can work now and get some money together for things I want to buy. I’m hoping to start a little project on my computer case soon, going to draw the ’snake heart’ logo on the case then cut them out with a nibbler, I don’t want to give the rest of my idea away but I’m going to blog about it and maybe tut on how to use it.

Here’s just one big update, I’ve cut my hair short and actually sat for my drivers test and got it. One last thing… Amber’s still a fucking cunt.

they’re a load of shit.

Let me give you a break down on why I think this and why I will always have this opinion of these ‘guides/blogs’

I know several people who own these blogs and I’ve read them but never tried to follow these guides, all they are is a blog full of advertisements to the same sort of ‘quick buck’ blogs that promise you ways to make money. They’re laced with affiliate links with promises. Many of them tell you to open blogs and to use affiliate programs then link you to them with their code and get money. It’s pretty much like a pyramid scheme and everyone is falling for it.

They advertise horrible products and are full of advertisements, sure they’re making you minimal money but it quickly dies down and they’re telling you to recycle what they’re doing with the same programs and claiming money when YOU sign up. Why not do something orginial and develop a unique idea that could make you so much more and in the end, you’ll be a lot happier when you’re not stuck with a blog that looks horrible and just recycles what another 100,000 blogs already say. It’s been done time and time again.

Honestly, we all want to make money but unless you’re making something unique with unique content that’ll keep users coming back then you won’t be making money for long and you’d have wasted a lot of time.

Goodluck with your online ventures and I hope you find your niche.